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The majority of my work is academic writing. I have some experience in personal narratives and I'm currently focused on developing my storytelling abilities through fiction

Personal Narrative

My Linguistic Escape

     Two New Yorkers, a New Jersian, and an Alabamian laid under the lights of the Alhambra. No this is not a joke. This is my life. One month in Granada, Spain, and I can now easily recall “the best experience of my life.” Feeling the warm pavement under our backs, there’s a sense of understanding that this is one of those moments you read about in books, so unique to our inherited lifestyle that we might as well have been living the lives of characters in a story. What started as a dramatic attempt at bilingualism transformed my perspective by opening me up to other ways, other linguistic and cultural modes, and another perspective of myself.
     Initially, I was worried that I would not be able to stay within the confines of the rigorous Language Pledge, and I was right to be. Nothing can prepare a person for being unable to communicate the only way they know how to. And as I tried to force the Spanish words I had learned through my English-wired brain, I had an immediate realization that I had never actually had a full conversation in Spanish. After nights reading my Spanish-English Dictionary before bed, and days in class squinting to try to understand better, I finally had a breakthrough: I was speaking Spanish, not translating it through English first.
     By existing in another language, I not only gained a vivid understanding of Spanish culture, I got to live, fully immersed in it. I’ve been told that the best way to understand a culture is through the language, but I never expected the language to give me a better understanding of myself. 
     My reality in English was controlled by a mind that wandered so far into the complexities of daily life that it overexerted itself, unnecessarily. As my experiences and native-English vocabulary expanded, so too did the messiness and complexity of day-to-day meaning-making. And though I was proficient in Spanish, compared to my English I had a very limited ability. However, in my attempts to gain this skill, I unexpectedly found an escape from my overworking mind. The brain that would think for hours on end in English no longer had the capacity, or the vocabulary, once it was stuck in the mindset of Spanish. My being went from in my head, to my mouth, and from my mouth out into the world; my state of being went out into the world with my words.  These two states were separate, bound only by the most innate aspects of my personality.
     Escaping to Spain was a bit intimidating; escaping into Spanish was a blessing. Without the luxury of understanding linguistic shades of meaning and intention, there was more emphasis on fundamental comprehension. Suddenly, everyone, including me, recessed into more human actions, speaking to communicate instead of to add to the nuance to their persona’s. 
     Living in Spain, living in Spanish, not only gave me an insight into the culture surrounding me, it allowed me to become a part of it. It was like I’d gained access to a new world: one I can completely escape into, where I can completely transform myself, my thoughts, and my actions, simply by changing my most natural skill, my language. I used to use a form of mental escapism that would take me out of my head, in attempts to cope with the shades of the world around me, that were so nuanced they were barely recognizable. But, through finding this new way of thinking, I felt a new need to be deeply present within each moment, to make sure I didn’t miss what was happening around me. 

Literary Analysis

Romance in the Graveyard: Sally Carrol’s Ecstasy of Eternal Seconds

     In Fitzgerald’s “The Ice Palace,” Sally Carrol is filled with romantic expectations, living life through rehearsed scenarios and idealized settings. While reality never lives up to her expectations, the graveyard gives way to a world beyond her usual perception, allowing her to thrive in her imagination. In the “dead south,” she can never be disappointed by the reality, making the graveyard the perfect location to cultivate her romantic fantasies.
     As Harry and Sally Carrol walk through the graveyard she describes her idealized version of the “dead south”(54). Buried below their feet, the confederate soldiers who fought for it, which she describes as “the most beautiful thing in the world” (53), Sally Carrol desperately wanted this old southern culture to “live in [her]” (54). However, because “it was all dead,” Sally Carrol never encountered any “disillusions,” which allowed her to expand on her fantasies of old southern culture (54). This immunity to dissolutions that the graveyard brings her makes it the most romantic place in her life, guarding her from a heartbreaking scenario of reality.
     When she brings Harry to the graveyard it is as though she’s trying to immortalize her own romance. As they pass “through the gateway,” a threshold between reality and her fantasies, Harry highlights her unique perception of reality stating, “I see through your precious eyes” (54). However, Sally Carrol is not just showing him the place that supported her fantasies. After they walk past graves of confederate soldiers, Sally Carrol and Harry sit. “She kissed him,” immortalizing their romance for her, in an “ecstasy of eternal seconds”; their love story commemorated by a fitting headstone: “a low broken wall,” (54).
     To Sally Carrol this graveyard was full of stories, romance, and beauty. Her childlike naivety and imagination flourished in a place that couldn’t provide a dissolution. And like these stories Sally Carrol wanted her romance with Harry to be immortalized, immune to the truth of reality: “an ecstasy of eternal seconds.”

Academic Writing

Infinity

     “The perfect search engine,” Google’s co-founder Sergey Brin said, “would be like the mind of God.” In your opinion, will science and technology eventually allow us to know all things knowable?Are there limits to what the perfect search engine will reveal, or might it indeed become like the mind of God?

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     The invention of the internet and ownership of personal technological devices has provided the Earth’s population with more information than ever before, with modern search engines providing immediate information on almost any subject imaginable. For example, Google, the world's leading search engine, reaches over one billion users – and its  aims for technological advancements are only getting more ambitious. Google’s Co-founder, Sergey Brin, stated that “The perfect search engine would be like the mind of God.”. However, due to the limitations of a closed system, a search engine could never index an infinite amount of knowledge, and the lack of omniscient perspective would exclude the possibility of a search engine ever resembling the mind of God - God in question understood to be omniscient.
     In order to resemble the omniscience inherent to the mind of God, a search engine must have knowledge of every possibility, infinite information,  an understanding of every thought and perspective of every living being, and share the same divine perception. God is believed to have a comprehension that is on a level unattainable to humans which is defined specifically in the Christian faith: “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts your thoughts” (Isaiah 55:8-9). This unfathomable perception leaves room for a realm of information inconceivable to humans. 
     The differences between the mind of God and the possibilities of a search engine are furthered by the inherent limitations of any closed system. These limitations are defined in Gödel’s incompleteness theorem, which states that it is impossible to prove the consistency of any closed system that is based on arithmetic. This limitation refutes the possibility of perfection among a technological system, and highlights a significant gap in knowledge ingrained in any closed mathematical system. 
     In the context of indexing information, a closed system is limited simply because it is impossible to contain an infinite amount of information within a finite system, especially an infinity that is currently expanding faster than the speed of light. As of June 2016, Nasa’s Hubble constant value for the speed at which the universe is increasing is 45.5 miles per second per megaparsec.  Although the universe is technically expanding faster than the speed of light, no particle is moving faster than the speed of light relative to any other particle. Since this expansion does not disprove Albert Einstein’s theory of Special Relativity, which limits the travelable speed in a vacuum to the speed of light, the knowledge contained within every possible universe is increasing faster than the rate at which information can be indexed. 
     Further inhibiting the completion of a closed system, as well as its ability to allow humans to know all things knowable, is Fitch’s Paradox of Knowability which states that if all known truths are knowable then all unknown truths are unknowable. Since it’s impossible to know unknown information, it’s impossible to know if there’s knowledge past the extent to which science and technology can reach, therefore leaving humans ignorant to what is known relative to what is unknown.  
     It is impossible to understand the extent of infinity and equally impossible to know infinite information. Even with the overwhelming advancements within math and science, there will never be a search engine created that could contain an infinite amount of information or make it available for humans to understand. Furthermore, due to the inherent ignorance to possible information, a search engine would never reach the omniscience of God’s mind. Science, technology, and humans can never know what information is still beyond what is known. 

 

Monopoly’s Oppression of a Feminist Figure

     Lizzie Magie is the most underappreciated figure in the history and development of Monopoly. Her hard work and unique ideas were overshadowed by Charles Darrow, as a patriarchal society devoured his well marketed Monopoly. Although Magie had produced a precursing game of extreme similarity, the Landlord’s Game, her ideas were seen as radical, giving the Parker Brothers and Darrow an opening to extensively market his version of the game. Magie’s radical economic and feminist ideas were overshadowed by the Darrow’s Monopoly, causing her possible societal influence to fade into obscurity just as her board game did. 
     Unlike many women of her time, Magie was unmarried, devoting all of her time developing her ideas and creations. She went as far as to “[describe] marriage as ‘a germ’ and [liken] it to ‘a disease.’” (Pilon 65). Due to her ability to get lost in ideas she was apprehensive at the idea of “anyone [interfering] with her ability to go off into her den and spend hours plodding through her books as she pleased” (Pilon 65). Although it was uncommon for a woman to not aspire to marriage at this time, her time spent independently is what gave her the confidence in her feminist ideas. 
     During her elongated time spent as a single, self sufficient, woman, Magie exercised her intellectual prowess. Again, different to what the typical women of the time subscribed to, her mother said that “Elizabeth has always been what one might call eccentric” (Pilon 62). But her mother also described her as “a woman of high ideals,’” and one that her hundreds of friends “swear by” (Pilon 62). And for the time, a woman deemed as eccentric being able to promote such a large following shows the influence that she was able to acquire. 
Lizzie Magie used her following, and intellectual acuity, to push forward on “the feminist warpath,” believing that women’s equality was the most "defining issue” of her time (Pilon 67). And unlike many women, her ability to fight for her rights was furthered by her ability to think critically on the issues at hand. Magie even stated that she was “thankful that [she] was taught how to think and not what to think” (Pilon 62). Magie obtained all of the qualities of one who could inspire change for feminism, but as she stated “women were still bound by corsets and had virtually no voice in the political system” (Pilon 67).
     So Magie chose to market her ideas through board games. In the Landlord’s Game specifically, she tried to contribute to the public's knowledge of the Georgist theory of singular taxation. She wrote that, as a woman, “what she experienced from the public at large, … was in sharp contrast to the reactions of the pro-suffrage Georgist community that usually surrounded her” (Pilon 67). And the Landlord’s Game was supposed to be what she described as a "practical demonstration of the present system of land-grabbing with all its usual outcomes and consequences" (Dodson) As a teaching tool, the game found its place in various universities and institutions. However, during WWI the newfound, widespread fear of communism made the georgist influence of the came seem almost unamerican. 
     And with the intense economic and political climate of WWI, “the single tax theory, which had electrified a generation of intellectuals, was starting to fade into extinction,” hindering the marketability of Magie’s Landlord’s Game (Pilon 70). However, almost thirty-years after the creation of the game Lizzie Magie’s beliefs were still strong. Although she continued to “[try] to breathe life into late thinker’s ideas… her role as the inventor of the game’s central Georgist message were about to be further obscured” (Pilon 74). However, the only thing that could possibly revitalize the game would be a complete rebranding. 
     This seemed to be a possibility when those involved in the Parker Brothers company wanted to purchase her patent for the landlord's game. Lizzie sold her patent for a measly “five hundred dollars. And no residuals,” under the circumstances that three of her games, including the Landlord’s Game, would be published (Pilon 122). With this deal Magie was “elated” because “her ideas about economics and politics were going to reach a mass audience - and under the banner of one of the most prestigious game companies in the world” (Pilon 122).  And Magie was even more eager to see how the buying during the holiday season, “might once again propel her name and ideals into the spotlight” (Pilon 123).
     In a sense, the game was saved from extinction when her patent was bought and the Parker Brother’s marketed Monopoly into a game worth millions. Unfortunately Magie’s games “received little publicity and faded into board game obscurity” (Pilon 125). Although the basic tenets of her game remained within Darrow’s Monopoly, her contributions to the development of the game are practically unseen. Magie’s patent number was almost invisible on the Monopoly box and the ideas that surrounded her name became concealed, causing Magie’s presence to become less obvious to the public.
     With the new presence of television and media marketing, Monopoly began skyrocketing in sales, and the Parker Brothers’ name became associated with “clean, wholesome, family fun” (Pilon 142). The board game industry was becoming more based on marketing than ever before, and the Parker Brothers was “the best” at selling a brand ideal (Pilon 141-142). With the rise in consumption based on marketing tactics The Parker Brothers and Charles Darrow began making millions on the game, and Lizzie Magie was making nothing. 
Due to the inconceivable popularity of Monopoly, Charles Darrow “was on track to become the rare board game millionaire” (109). And he did. Darrow became the first millionaire “board game creator,”  drawing even more publicity to the persona behind Monopoly. And his allure still remained after his death, awarding him a plaque on the Atlantic City Boardwalk and a legend for the ages. Pilon describes “the Darrow myth” as an “irresistible,... inspirational parable of American innovation” (242), and idea that further enticed those who saw such a story on the board itself. 
     While Darrow made a legacy for himself, acquiring millions for his family and a name that remained present in American culture, Lizzie Magie took the place of a ghost in the board games history. Magie was said to have been known as “only an elderly typist who talked about inventing games” (Pilon 125), a stark change from the fiery forty year old girl pushing the feminist movement forward with her ideas. 
     With the accreditation Darrow received from the game, he could’ve turned himself into a major player among American political and economic affairs. This would’ve been more possible, had his circumstances been fully met with the genius of a person who decidedly created and marketed the game. Darrow had money and the public's attention, two things that Magie worked hard to achieve, to progressive ideas, that could have greatly impacted American society.  
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 Works Cited

​Dodson, Edward J. "How Henry George's Principles Were Corrupted Into the Game Called Monopoly." The True History of the Monopoly Game. Henry George Institute. 2019. www.henrygeorge.org/dodson_on_monopoly.htm

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Pilon, Mary. The Monopolists. Bloomsbury. 2016

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An Obsession: The Codependent Relationship Between Two Teenage Murderesses 

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     The 1954 murder case involving Pauline Parker and Juliet Hulme captured the attention of  New Zealand society and people around the world.  With rumors of homosexuality swirling around, the public became obsessed with the motives behind the actions of these two girls. Their crime of parricide was fueled by the codependent relationship between the young teenagers.  Their fragile mental states allowed them to form an unnaturally close bond eventually leading to the murder of Pauline’s mother, Honorah Parker, when she posed a threat to the delusions they had developed together.

     The sources used to analyze this murder will include various court documents, direct and cross examinations of witnesses, news articles, and psychiatrist evaluations.  The news articles present an overview of the entire situation, also providing a media perspective on the girls’ case. More detailed, the court documents include specific examinations of witnesses and specialists involved in the crime and the lives of the girls, including witnesses such as Juliet’s mother and various psychiatrists. These close interactions provide a detailed references to the girls’ behavior and personality, eventually becoming a central part of their trial. Lastly, in order to define their behavior, will be the analysis of typical codependent behavior, which will be used to reference the girls behavior in order to determine any parallels present between their relationship and a codependent one. 

     The two girls central to this case are Pauline Parker and Juliet Hulme. Juliet, only fifteen at the time of the murder, was born into an affluent English family, as daughter to Henry Rainsford Hulme, one of the four great minds responsible for the creation of the British H-Bomb. Although born into a lifestyle of privilege, she spent her childhood battling debilitating pneumonia and Bronchitis, being sent to live with strangers after the birth of her brother in 1944. After it’s recurrence at the age of eight, Juliet was sent to the Bahamas to live with relatives, in hopes that the climate would positively impact her health. Some believe it was possible that Juliet developed an attachment disorder due to her separation, which can in turn cause a narcissistic personality. Judith Morris, A psychotherapist from Auckland who specialises in children in adolescents describes the behavior of someone with this disorder stating, “as a coping strategy they can become "desperate to hang onto whoever they feel they can trust" and some themselves off from adults,” further acknowledging that “An over-inflated ego and outbursts of violence are also typical for those with the disorder.” It was later determined that the girls suffered from paranoia, attachment anxiety, and narcissism, disorders that would play an integral part in the eventual killing of Mrs. Rieper, Pauline’s mother.

     Later, when she was thirteen, Hulme reunited with  her family in Christchurch, New Zealand, after her father took a new job title as rector at the University of Canterbury. She soon began attending Christchurch Girls’ High School, where she met Pauline Parker. 

     Similar to Juliet, Parker had also battled childhood illness, a crippling bone marrow disease in her leg known as osteomyelitis.  The two girls immediately bonded over their respective childhood illnesses, their mutual appreciation for literature, and love of writing.  At this point, the relationship between the teenagers was seemingly normal, Parker’s mother even being “pleased about the association.” 2 

However,  this relation was said to have “developed rapidly into what may be called an intense devotion for each other.”  Pauline made no other friends after meeting Juliet, whom became the center of her attention and Juliet stopped paying attention to her horse, “with the horse once a week rather than once a day.” 2  Losing interest in their world, outside of each other, is an extremely common occurrence among codependents, isolating them from healthy relationships and personal identity. This was one of the first signs that their relationship would become obsessive.

     However close, these friends were a very unlikely pairing. Juliet was known to be a bit vain. She was seen by others as “the golden-haired beauty who treated other girls “with an airy bemused dismissiveness.” 10  Pauline, on the other hand, was described as the “dark scowler with the “filthy temper.” Their commonalities lying in their high intelligence, arrogant dispositions, and fervid imaginations. These qualities created a degree of separation from those around them, with typical characteristics. The girls were aware of their distinction, Pauline even going as far as to write in her diary, “how sad it is for other people that they cannot appreciate our genius.” 10

Pauline and Juliet even believed this genius gave them access to another dimension that they referred to as “the fourth world.” An excerpt in Pauline’s diary describes the girls newfound access to this “dimension”:

Today Juliet and I found the key to the 4th World. We realize now that we have had it in our possession for about 6 months but we only realized it on the day of the death of Christ. We saw a gateway through the clouds. We sat on the edge of the path and looked down the hill out over the bay. The island looked beautiful. The sea was blue. Everything was full of peace and bliss. We then realized we had the key. We know now that we are not genii as we thought. We have an extra part of our brain, which can appreciate the 4th World. Only about 10 people have it. When we die we will go to the 4th World, but meanwhile on two days every year we may use the ray and look into that beautiful world which we have been lucky enough to be allowed to know of, on this Day of Finding the Key to the Way through the Clouds. 13

 

     In her description of their discovery, the girls’ defined elevated sense of self shows evidence of their narcissism. Their complete belief in the world if fueled further by their intense imaginations, and each other.

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Pauline Parker can be found looking down in her class photo

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     This “genius,” or as believed by the girls’ to be unique brains, found expression in their writing of romance dramas and terrible poetry. Their writing began as matching descriptions of grandeur. But, they soon began to contain themes of murder, suicide, and imprisonment at an equal degree. Their love for the dramatic things in life, Pauline and Juliet spent a significant amount of time acting and dressing up, swooning over movie stars like James Mason, miming opera arias and imagining a shared future of glamour and romance. Activities were recorded in a “distorted and untruthful way” in Pauline’s diary. Their diary entries also described blissful nights during which they reenacted love scenes from Hollywood movies.

     As their shared interests and intelligence began to divert their interactions with those who “[could not] appreciate their genius,” their relationship continued to intensify. In a cross examination of Hulme’s mother she recounts a specific milestone in their relationship, in which the girls decided to go on a bicycle into the country. They returned missing articles of their clothing. Afterwards, Hulme’s mother noticed that their relationship “ became very important to both of them from that date.” 1 It was instances like these that created the suspicion that their relationship was homosexual, a characteristic that was believed to affect mental health and sanity.

     However, only a suspicion, the girls were allowed to continue their close partnership. The girls became literary partners and equally supported and admired the others’ talents. It was even discovered that Parker and Hulme had been trying to obtain money for a journey to the United States in order “to have their novels published.” 2     

     However, this fantasy continued past just simple literary greatness. In fact, principal psychiatric consultant for the defense, noted the girls’ deluded plans for fame in the US, describing their plans to go to Hollywood and supervise the cinema productions of their Novels, even choosing the actors. 

     Though, when Hulme was committed to a sanatorium, this shared literary interest led to a unique form of communication for the girls. They wrote to each other through the characters in their stories. They would put themselves into their developed characters, by names such as Charles II, Lancelon, and Deborah. Due to this constant communication, their relationship seemingly intensified after Hulmes spout at the sanitorium. Hulme described the loyalty she felt she owed for this stating, “I wasn’t allowed visitors of any sort but she wrote to me every day”  While the girls became closer after these months, Juliet is said to have “felt [she] owed her for that friendship.” 15 

     It was very obvious, from then on, that the girls had extreme separation anxiety whenever they were apart. In August of 1954 Juliet Hulme’s family moved to Ilam Homestead, a plantation like home on the land of Canterbury University. Parker was said to have visited their house consistently, sometimes spending days at a time there. During their days spent together in Ilam they were described as “[wandering] about together, keeping very much to themselves” and “[scribbling] in exercise books effusions which they called novels.” The two girls were also described as having “spent a good deal of time in each other’s beds, and made plans for their future life together.” 2  The significant amount of time they spent alone together caused “distresses” for the girls “unless they could make and appointment to see each other at regular intervals.” 1 Mrs. Rieper eventually began to find the girls behavior unhealthy and worked towards their separation. 

     It was around the same time that Hulme’s father decided to relocate to England, eventually deciding that she would then accompany her father “as far as South Africa.” However, Parker and Hulme were “determined not to be parted”. This attempt at separating the girls, by Parker’s mother, caused a great deal of resentment from the girls that gradually boiled over into an anger capable of paracide. Knowing that her mother would not let her accompany Juliet to South Africa, “they decided that the best way to end Mrs. [Rieper]’s objections was to kill her in such a manner as to make her death appear an accident.” 6  Pauline, chronicling her thoughts during this event, seemingly justifies their plan to herself by writing, "Why could mother not die? Dozens of people are dying all the time, thousands, so why not mother, and father too." 6 In an excerpt from Pauline’s diary from the days leading up to the event:

“… we decided to use a rock in a stocking rather than a sandbag. We discussed the moider fully. I feel very keyed up as if I was planning a Surprise party … So next time I write in this diary Mother will be dead. How odd, yet how pleasing.” 6

     As the girls had planned, on July 22nd 1954, Pauline Parker, Juliet Hulme, and Honorah Rieper went on a walk in Victoria Park of Christchurch, New Zealand. This is where the girls were decisively going to fulfil the plans for their vicious attack. After walking a few hundred feet down the trail, the two girls revealed their weapon. Using half a brick enclosed in a stocking, the two teenage girls took turns beating Parker’s mother, effectively ending her life. 

     After seeing that Mrs. Rieper was no longer alive, the girls ran to a nearby kiosk where the worker described them as being “agitated, breathless, and gasping ‘please help us. Mummy has been hurt --- covered with blood.’”           The body was found soon after, with injuries that made it evident immediately that she had been brutally beaten. Pathologist Colin Pearson later reported there were 45 external injuries, 24 wounds to the face and scalp, and fractures to the front of the skull. It was later revealed that the brick came out of the stocking from the force of the blows. The two who discovered the body called the police, and when the girls were found in the tearoom, “Parker was quiet, and the other girl was very agitated.” 3

     At 8:00 that night, the girls were met at Hulme’s house in Ilam by two detectives. Both girls stuck to their original story, Pauline stating: “We were walking up the track having been to the bottom. I was leading and mother and Deborah were behind me. Mother suddenly slipped and fell. She twisted sideways and hit her head on a rock or something. She seemed to keep tossing up and down and hitting her head." 6 However, after Senior Detective Brown made it apparent that they did not buy their story and questioned Pauline again: 

Who assaulted your mother?

I did.

Why?

If you don't mind I won't answer that question.

When did you make up your mind to kill your mother?

A few days ago.

Did you tell anyone you were going to do it?

No. My friend does not know anything about it. She was out of sight at the time. She had gone on ahead.

What did your mother say?

I would rather not answer that.

How many times did you hit your mother?

A good many times, I imagine.

What did you use?

A half-brick in a stocking. I took them with me for the purpose. I had the brick in my shoulder-bag. I wish to state that Juliet did not know of my intentions and she did not see me strike my mother. I took the chance to strike my mother while Juliet was away; I still do not wish to say why I killed my mother.

Did you tell Juliet that you killed your mother?

She knew nothing about it. As far as I know she believed what I told her, although she may have guessed what had happened, but I doubt it as we were both so shaken that it probably did not occur to her.

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"As soon as I started to strike my mother I regretted it but could not stop then." 6 

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     Parker was immediately transported to Christchurch Police Station, where they charged her with murder. Although Juliet was supposedly in the clear due to the contents of Pauline’s confession, after a search of Pauline’s room her diary was found. This diary contained descriptions of their plans leading up to the event, even detailing Juliet’s role in the murder. Juliet was then questioned the following day, confessing:  

"We went to a spot well down one of the paths and Mrs Parker decided to come back. On the way back I was walking in front. I was expecting Mrs Parker to be attacked. I heard noises behind me. It was a loud conversation in anger. I saw Mrs Parker in a sort of squatting position. They were quarreling. I went back. I saw Pauline hit Mrs Parker with the brick in the stocking. I took the stocking and hit her too. I was terrified. I thought that one of them had to die. I wanted to help Pauline. It was terrible. Mrs Parker moved convulsively. We both held her. She was still when we left her. The brick had come out of the stocking with the force of the blows. I cannot remember Mrs Parker saying anything distinctly. I was too frightened to listen...After the first blow was struck I knew it would be necessary to kill her. I was terrified and hysterical." 6

     On August 23, 1954 the trial of the murder of Honora Rieper commenced in Christchurch. The trial detailed the motives of the girls, and examined their abnormally close relationship. Though the defence never rebutted the claim that Parker and Hulme were responsible for the murder, on the third day of the trial they presented the assertion that the girls were insane when they killed Mrs. Rieper.

 

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Pauline Parker (right) and Juliet Hulme (left) before standing trial

 

     Attempting to prove the girls’ insanity called for a detailed inspection of their interactions and personal statements. Crown prosecutor, Mr. Brown, brought forward medical witness, Kenneth Robert Stallworthy to testify to the mental state of the two girls. After examining them separately, he stated that neither of the girls had a “disease of the mind.” Then, after reading Pauline’s diary, he came to the conclusion that “they had written down what they intended to do, and that they were able to give a clear account of what they did” further explaining that this understanding made it clear that “they knew the nature and quality of their act.” However, Stallworthy continues his refutation of their insanity stating, “I gained a very definite impression they wanted to be found insane,” which further proved his claim that they were sane because “it is extremely rare for an insane person to wish to be considered insane. That is part of their insanity.” 4

     Psychiatrists among the court concluded that the girls suffered from “paranoia, delusions of grandeur and delusions of ecstasy.” Each girl effectively enhances the others mental afflictions. The Crown prosecutor considered the crime a “cold, callously committed and premeditated murder, committed by two highly intelligent and perfectly sane girls.” 12

     The Crown ultimately denied their plea for insanity, found by multiple psychiatrists to have known what they were doing.  Besides rumored homosexuality, which was considered a serious mental illness at the time, Pauline Parker and Juliet Hulme were convicted as minors, being found clinically sane. The two teenagers, too young for the death penalty, were sentenced “at Her Majesty’s pleasure.” 6 They spent five years at Mount Eden Prison, where they were kept separated, unfortunately receiving no psychiatric treatment during their sentence. 

     Released before 1960, Pauline Parker and Juliet Hulme received new identities. Juliet, now a famous crime author named Anne Perry, went immediately to italy after her release to join her father, stepmother, and eventually, her mother. Pauline, however, was released with a condition of a controlled location of where she lived. During this controlled period, in which she was required to stay in Auckland, the renamed Pauline, Hilary Nathan, received her Bachelor of Arts degree. In 1965, released from her release conditions, she relocated out of New Zealand.

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Mugshots of Pauline Parker (left) and Juliet Hulme (right)

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     This five and a half day trial captivated international media attention. Not only is parricide an extremely rare and notorious crime, the girls’ ages made the extents of this event even more incomprehensible. Not to mention the interest the media took in the details of their partnership. Hypothesis on the girls sexuality and mental state, now, not only circulated the court but were rampant in the media, as news outlets would detail every aspect of their relationship possible to support their claims. 
   It has become a very common belief, in regards to this case, that the tight bond the two girls had was motivated by their homosexuality, which at the time was believed to have effects on one's mental health and sanity. Dr. Reginald Medlicott, a psychiatrist who interviewed Parker and Hulme and analyzed their writings, said ” There is evidence that their friendship became a homosexual one. There is no proof there was a physical relationship, although there is a lot of suggestive evidence from the diary that this occurred. There is evidence that they had baths together and had frequent talks on sexual matters.” Pauline’s diary entries also described blissful nights during which they reenacted love scenes from Hollywood movies. In a suggestive remark from Juliet she states, “We have now learned the peace of the thing called bliss and the joy of the thing called sin. That was to do with them becoming intimate with each other." However, when asked later about their relationship she contended, "But we're two girls; how could it be possible?" 
     While the evidence seems to support the notion that the girls relationship had crossed into a sexual relationship, the renamed Hulme, Anne Perry refutes this belief various times. When interviewed by the New York Times in 1996, Perry describes the aversion she has for the suggestion of lesbianism in their relationship stating, "I was so innocent sexually then."Later , reported in a 2006 interview in the NZ Herald, Perry is said to have told London Times Saturday Magazine, that “although they were never lesbians the relationship was obsessive.” 7
     In the time of this case, homosexuality was said to have affects or be a sign of ones insanity of mental illness. Now known to not be the case, however, it is much more likely that this crime was the result of a codependent friendship intensified by their difficult childhoods and love for drama and romance. 
     Although it can take on many forms, a codependent relationship is “when one partner needs the other partner, who in turn, needs to be needed.” 5 In these relationships, can cause ones’ mood, happiness, and identity to be determined by the others.’ There is also typically a more passive personality, who is less likely to make decisions for themselves, paired with a more decisive personality who finds satisfaction in making decisions for the other.9  These friendships typically develop quickly into an all consuming, almost passionate, relation.
     Typically, as for any unhealthy relationship, codependency can develop from an upsetting or traumatizing event in ones childhood. Although it could initially be perceived that the girl’s respective health issues would cause developmental issues, childhood illnesses does not inherently affect one's ability to have relationships. However, due to the significant time spent away from her parents, it is believed that Juliet became very dependent on her family as she was integrated back in to their home life, finding her place after so much time away. On the other side, Parker was known to have a very rough relationship with her mother, arguing often, sometimes even brutally. 8
     These types of relationships are also known to relieve a sort of emptiness. As played an integral part of their initial bonding, both of the girls had crippling childhood illnesses. From an exceedingly young age, Hulme had to spend a significant time away from her family, and constantly deal with displacement. Similarly, Parker had to undergo multiple painful treatments, ultimately continuing to endure leg pain for most of her child, which excused her from physical activities in school. Due to this time spent away from other children, traumatizing procedures, and exclusion from activities it was unusual for the girls to find someone who could relate to their experiences. Although this shared experience may have bonded the girls, what really intensified their relationship was their shared love for romance, literature, art, and drama, creating an passion in their friendship which fulfilled their want for this form of emotion through creativity, intensity also being a significant tell of a codependent relationship.11
     Typically in these relationships there is a passive personality, paired with an active personality, to balance it. The active personality is more decisive, sometimes even being identified as clinically narcissistic. Whereas the passive personality is less confrontational, allowing the active personality to be decisive. Juliet, for example, contained the very intense and somewhat vain personality similar to that of the active personality. To those who knew Juliet closely, acknowledged that she was “highly emotional and would be a responsibility until she developed and acquired a less intense attitude to living.” As an older woman, the renamed hulme, is said to be “handsome,” and somewhat vain stating, “ I’m too vain to get fat if I can help it.” This sort of “responsibility,” paired with an possible obsession created by the Actives’ narcissism, is usually taken up by the more passive participant, who finds self-assurance in helping and focusing on others. Similar in her devotion, Pauline,  “wrote [Juliet] every day” when she wasn’t allowed visitors. Also, as previously stated, the two girls began ignoring their other relationships after meeting each other, captivating the others attention.15 
     While codependent relationships are seen as unhealthy, rarely do they lead to such intense crime. However, in these relationships both people can find their judgment compromised, effectively carrying out actions they would’ve otherwise never done. Juliet, possibly further influenced by now-known-to-be mood altering drugs to treat her tuberculosis, felt a certain debt to Pauline for her friendship recounting, “Within 24 hours I learnt that my parents’ marriage was dissolving, my father lost his job and they were leaving the country and a girl to whom I felt I owed a great deal of debt hit the buffers as well and the decision had to be made within hours.” Juliet goes on to say that she believed Parker would kill herself if they were separated, that it was “one life or the other.” 15
     Neither of these girls was found clinically insane. However, due to their commonalities in interest, intelligence, and balancing personalities the two teenagers quickly developed an intense codependent relationship. Due to the sudden threat to their partnership, mixed with the high family tensions,  the girls acted quickly. Fueled further by guilt and obsession, their codependent relationship allowed for a more dramatic solution than if their relationship had been healthy. 

 

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The Game of Life

     Milton Bradley is one of the most influential figures within the world of board games. His Checkered Game of life, now simply known as the Game of Life, developed into a multi-million dollar brand and created a foundation for Bradley’s continuing endeavors. Although he is most famous for his hand in the creation of one of the world’s most popular board games, Bradley also had a significant contribution to the world of primary education. Although he initially set out to teach children what success looks like, through The Checkered Game of Life, through his role in kindergarten education Milton Bradley learned what it truly meant to be successful.  
     In his initial patent for the Checkered Game of Life, under the name “Social Game,” Bradley stated that it was a game that was “intended to forcibly impress upon the, minds of youth the great moral principles of virtue and vice,” as they play towards “happy old age” (Bradley, US Patent). However, the game diverged slightly from the traditional idea of moral principles described in his patent. Instead of focusing on actions related to character, the Checkered Game of Life simply rewarded the actions that got the player to “wealth and success”(Lepore, The Mansion of Happiness xxviii). Under this version of success, Bradley had already won the literal game of life. 
Born into a working-class family, Bradley was not un-accustomed to work. After highschool he found a job in the office of a mechanical draftsman and patent agent. Under this job, Bradley began saving until he was financially able to enroll himself in the Lawrence Scientific School where he studied drafting. However, just six months short of graduating, Bradley had to put a halt in his studies when his family moved to Connecticut. He was unable to find work here, so he eventually moved to Massachusetts, where he started working immediately as a draftsman.  Then, in 1858, after learning the art of lithography, Bradley started his own company where he sold prints of, future president, Abraham Lincoln. However, Lincoln decided to grow a beard soon after, making the “beardless” prints worthless (Ing).
     Soon after this incident, that put Bradley out of work, Bradley released his first game: The Checkered Game of Life. This game was based on the idea that life could be compared to a game, but a game that included “chance as well as skill” (Ing).  The game was undoubtedly influenced by Bradleys own experiences in life, as the “wise player will strive “ to gain on his journey that which shall make him the most prosperous, and to shun that which will retard him in his progress”” (Lepore, The Mansion of Happiness xv). Not unlike Bradley’s own path to success, involving the immediate transition from job to job, as he tried to make a respectable life for himself.  
     Although it’s clear that Bradley’s own views of life had a significant influence on the game, there seems to be a crossover of what the game is supposed to actually be about: virtue or prosperity. In his initial trip, trying to sell the game, Bradley claimed the Checkered Game of Life to be “a highly moral game… that encourages children to lead exemplary lives” (Lepore, The Mansion of Happiness xxvii). However, it became apparent that “Bradley’s game rewards only those virtues that lead to Wealth and Success” (Lepore, The Mansion of Happiness xxviii). 
Considering his upbringing, in a religious, working-class family, it’s obvious as to why these two values were so mixed in The Checkered Game of Life. While the Christian church teaches moral standards above the idealization of wealth, to Bradley money was an immediate goal in order to live a decent life. In his own words, he went “from the Poverty and Obscurity in which [he] was born and bred, to a state of Affluence and some degree of Reputation in the World” (Lepore, The Mansion of Happiness xxvii). And his path to success became paralleled in his game, where “you don’t play for your soul; you play for success” (Lepore, The Mansion of Happiness xxvii). 
     In 1860, he founded The Milton Bradley Company, which became one of the largest game manufacturers of it’s time. It produced games such as Candy Land, Operation, and Battleship. Although Bradley found tremendous success with board game production, his ambitions eventually led him in a different direction. By the end of the same decade, Bradley found himself involved in the kindergarten movement, which emphasized the necessity of education for children ages four to six on the grounds that young children could enhance their mental capabilities through “art and play” (Lepore, The Meaning of Life). Bradley began using his resources to produce works promoting the kindergarten system, even publishing two educational magazines through his company: Kindergarten Review and Work and Play. Although these magazines were eventually deemed unsuccessful and maintained very little support, Bradley continued publishing the works for the rest of his life. 
   Although his initial contributions were essentially un-profitable, Bradley proceeded on his path of contributing towards the kindergarten movement. Through experimentation, Bradley eventually developed a new “color wheel,” to teach young children about color through “brighter and purer colors” than were previously accessible (Ing). After this color-experiment, Bradley quickly found a passion for the research around it. He eventually published four books around the use of color in early education. They were entitled: Color in the School Room (1890), Color in the Kindergarten (1893), Elementary Color (1895), and Water Colors in the Schoolroom (1900) (Ing). 
To preface his first book, Color in the School Room: a Manual for Teachers,  Bradley began his exploration of the implementation of proper color education, in which he introduces the “two heads of Light and Color” (Bradley, Color in the School Room 8). He goes on to describe how color education has been primarily from the “aesthetic side” and the “science of color… has been separated from the artistic consideration of the subject” (Bradley, Color in the School Room 5). But, in order to completely contribute to a child’s color education one must know both sides, and how they work together. 
     He then expands on his research in one of his later works, Elementary Color. Coining it a “special perceptive power,” Bradly continues by expressing the need for color education in the beginning stages of one's life, as “the mind is most receptive and there are no preconceptions to overcome” (Bradley, Elementary Color 3). And because color’s “great importance in the arts and its contribution to the enjoyment of life are matched by the multiplicity of problems in the physical and philosophical sciences with which it is connected” (Bradley, Elementary Color 1-2), Bradley implored that “every means should be employed that will help the child to distinguish between principal colors and between modifications of principal colors” (Bradley Elementary Color 3). 
As his research continued, Bradley remained connected to the idea that early education had an extreme influence on how the child developed mentally and physically. In Paradise of Childhood (1896), a book edited by Bradley, he includes in the editor's notes that children must understand that “nothing is isolated or unconnected” (104). This relates specifically to the idea that “play of the exercising of the child’s activity is the first means of development of the human mind” even claiming that “the  means by which the child is to become acquainted with the outer world and his own powers of body and mind” (273). Just as is valued in The Checkered Game of Life, the investment in childhood education can be directly related to the command a child has over “his own powers,” and in turn his future.  
     Although, at this point, Bradley shows regard for the most direct path towards success, it seems that after he found financial success his definition on the matter evolved. In another statement on the benefits of primary education Bradley writes, “through the gifts the formative and expressed powers of the child are exercised, his judgment and reason are developed and he gains a love of all that is beautiful and harmonious” (Bradley, Paradise of Childhood 106). Instead of focusing solely on how a child’s developing mind will influence his success later in life, as would’ve been likely at the beginning of his career, Bradley’s newfound financial stability allowed him to think about a more central meaning of success in relation to life. 
In the same year as his notes on the Paradise of Childhood, Bradley married a school teacher named Ellen “Nellie” Thayer, and they went on to have two children. Married to a school teacher, and father of two, Bradley was more directly connected to primary education than ever before. And with his new direction in life came a new artistic focus. Initially only using his artistic abilities for “practical purposes such as mechanical drafting,” it was later in life that Bradley gained an appreciation for art’s “aesthetic qualities” (Ing). 
Without the Checkered Game of Life Bradley never would’ve understood what it meant to truly feel, and be successful. He used his newfound financial stability, to continue reaching new goals; developing the Milton Bradley Company, which eventually allowed him command over his written contributions to society. His hunger for success pushed him to contribute invaluable research and influence to the kindergarten movement which can still be seen to this day. 
   His passion for aiding in the kindergarten movement not only helped children’s education, it also helped Bradley understand what it was like to feel fulfilled in one’s work. Instead of regarding the meaning of life as the direct acquisition of wealth and influence, he begins to see new possibilities for the meaning of success and it’s place in one’s life. In a reflection in the Kindergarten Review, one of the Milton Bradley Company’s primarily unprofitable magazines on childhood education, Bradley reflects on his achievements in his life:
In using the word success, I do not wish to confine its meaning to that cheap interpretation which sees only the glitter of gold or the glamour of elusive fame. In my case, I cannot overestimate the feeling of satisfaction which has been with me all these years at the thought that I have done something, if only something prosaic in character, to place the kindergarten on its present solid foundation. ( Lepore, The Mansion of Happiness xxxiii)
A statement indistinguishable from the philosophy that caused the Checkered Game of Life to flourish. Although it may have rung true to him at the time, the change in Bradley’s philosophy, on what a successful life looked like, were changed after he found a more fulfilling definition of success. This makes it reasonable to assume that a fully-matured Milton Bradley saw life a bit differently than the Milton Bradley that created the multimillion dollar company that still has an influence on societies in 2019. 
     With his uber-successful Checkered Game of Life, that has morphed into one of the most popular board games of the modern day, Bradley achieved a new level of success for his time. He achieved the classic rags-to-riches story and achieved financial success unparalleled by the common man. Although, his success was based on the concept of quickly achieving success through financial prosperity, this concept did not continue with him forever. 
After finding a role in the kindergarten education movement, Bradley came to understand what it truly meant to feel fulfilled in one’s work; to have a positive impact on society, instead of requiring one’s own ideals upon it. Through his contribution Bradley gave the coming generations an opportunity to get a head start on their own education, which would eventually allow them to develop their skills to have a continuing impact on society. In this way, Bradley had a role in shaping the real “game of life,” as his influence allowed for a more direct impact of his research and ideas. 
     Through his research and commentary on the effects of color in the education of young children, it is possible that a new appreciation for the arts emerged in american schools. This would’ve given young artists the opportunity to develop their own creative skills without sacrificing their education, as well as create a more respectful environment for those creative children. Without Bradley’s name, important due to his role in board game creation, it’s possible that the Kindergarten movement wouldn’t have reached its full potential; creating the primary education that’s now customary within American schools. 
While Milton Bradley had a significant influence on the research and implementation of color education, it seems that his work also had a significant impact on his own perceptions. As an ambitious young drafter, Bradley maintained his understanding that the morally qualities that society rewarded were only those that would help one achieve a prosperous life and significant reputation. However, after achieving financial independence and a valuable name, Bradleys continuation into different fields showed that success is not simply that which gives one material and societal value. After his spout in education research, Bradley came to understand the value of doing what made him happy. In the later stages of his life Milton Bradley defined his original understanding of success as “a cheap interpretation,” only understanding it to be so after he came to know the “feeling of satisfaction” that can come with ones work. 
     Milton Bradley’s influence on societies perception of life was most significant through his production of The Checkered Game of Life. However, the most significant influence on his own perception was the fulfilment he found through his later work. It was only through actually living life that Bradley came to properly understand the values that should be emphasized in order to achieve actual contentment with one’s path; something that would play out very differently on the board game of his early career. 

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The Mansion of Happiness: a History of Life and Death. Vintage, 2013.Lepore, Jill. “The Meaning of Life.” The New Yorker, Condé Nast, 14 May 2007.Ing, Deborah S. “Bradley, Milton .” American National Biography Online, Feb. 2000, Wiebé Edward, et al. Quarter Century Edition of the Paradise of Childhood: a Practical Guide to Kindergartners. Milton Bradley Company, 1903.

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